A year ago

A year ago, I entered the plane pretty sure knowing, I wont be coming back.

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This is the first year in a different country, different people and a different environment.

12 months and 365 days.

Do you people know the feeling of being alone? I am not talking about going alone to a shop or going alone to the bus stop. The feeling of being lonely. I have had this feeling several times this year, it’s deffinetly not nice.

I felt like I was in a sort of box, I couldn’t escape from. Talking to my family or my friends didn't help, at first. Therefore, I had to sit down, breath, listen to music and just think, in better words shut the world down. I kept thinking and asked myself, why did I made this step or if it was the right step. You know when your mind start whispering stuff to you or (how most people call it your "inner voice” start speaking to you) and you just get irritated. You know what I did, I prayed. You lot will think I am exaggerating, which is understandable because by reading this you will just be like, “it’s not even a big deal”. I have spoken to a couple of people not living with their family but with family relatives and there was always something they had to say, or a story they told me about the change and different circumstances. Let me just make this clear, no one on this earth can ever replace your Mom or your Dad or ever be like them, trust the story of a Sis.

In this case, if anyone of you lot are reading this and you don’t live with your family but with family relatives or a family friend and you have had this weird feeling of loneliness which feels like it’s dragging you down. Don’t think you are the only one, a couple of people feel that way including me.

I miss my family so much, just their company and all the little things we share together.

If you know my parents, you know there are the funniest people on this earth

As I said earlier no one on this earth can ever replace your Mom or your Dad or ever be like them.

Not living with the people you love teaches you how to appreciate every single thing they do for you.

I am such a mommy and daddy girl so you lot can imagine how it is for me, being away from them, but there is this point in your, life you gotta do things to come closer to your destiny/dreams.

If I tell you I went out of my comfort zone, fam I went miles.

This year, haha. It has been a journey.

If I have not been calling you and telling you whatsup, you missed.

Things like school problems did not exist this year, but that does not mean it has not been hard.

For the very first time in my life, I enjoyed going to school the whole year to the extent that I cannot even wait going back to college. I love my teachers btw.

People here in London do not know much about Austria they sometimes even compare it to Australia, which is hilarious but understandable.

What shocked them was when I started speaking about the diversity in Austria. They all were like “I’m glad living in England”.

Do not get it wrong, no one is saying that England is perfect and that racism don't exist here. :)

I grew a lot this year I became so much stronger. I am not talking about the physical part of getting stronger but getting stronger mentally. Your mental health is important; most people take that for granted.

Fasting and prayer became a routine.

I just love how everyone is busy in London; no one really has your time. Everyone is getting his stuff sorted out. #busylife

I can't wait to see where God will take me the next year, stay tuned lol.