Sometimes a little change is a good thing.

A change can be scary, but you know what's scarier? Allowing fear to stop you from growing, evolving and progressing.

Hey lovelies, I hope you all doing alright. Today’s blog post is about letting go and changes. As you all know I made a big step in my life, which was moving to the UK. Okay, for some this might not be a big thing, but for me it is.

Back then in Austria: I felt like I didn’t belong there. I kept on telling my friends: “Listen, I can’t be here anymore. I need to go and I don’t even fit in there.” And all that. There are a lot of reasons why I wanted to leave. One of the biggest reason was the German language lol. I don’t know why but in my entire life I always had shitty German teachers, who always decided to fuck up my whole school life lol. (I had two good ones, btw). Anyways that’s all in the past now. Haha I wouldn’t say life in Graz was bad tho. I had a great childhood, ngl. I’m very glad and happy I grew up in such a safe and beautiful country. Austria itself is such a beautiful country.

“Change means that what was before wasn’t perfect. People want things to be better.” Esther Dyson.

As I said, I needed a change, I was tired of the environment, the people, the teachers and so on and so on.

London: Alright I made it into a really good school and into a very high class. I was so surprised. My family left, went back to Austria so I was all by myself. Well, not all alone by myself. I live with some of my relatives. But you lot just deep it: I’M ALL BY MYSELF HERE. No mom, no dad, no Loura, no Dennis or even Hannah. I left them all behind. Now you lot would think “yh, isn’t that what you wanted? A change?”. Yes, that is exactly what I wanted: A change. And I did change and I’m so proud of that. I don’t regret coming here to London because I was basically forced to step out of my comfort zone. It’s tough to separate from all the people you love, but it’s worth it. I started to become more responsible, more experienced, stronger and definitely happier.

Don’t get me wrong, of course I miss my family and friends. I miss them so badly you won’t even understand. But being alone and all by myself, like I already said, has taught me so much.

Everything has changed. The way I think, act and behave. I’ve never been so focused in my life. I’m so proud of myself. I’m so grateful that Jehovah brought me so far, it is just by His will and by His grace.

“The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.”

Many chapters in my life have been closed (friendships, chances…), but they have also been so many opened. I think that’s just how life works. As you get older you see things differently, the importance of certain things. I still need to learn so many things and to let go of certain things. But as the previous blog post says everything takes time. I feel like God has so many plans for me and that my life actually just started.

I just want to be happy and live my best life.

Step by step, I'm finding my happiness :)

“The moment you lose your tripe, you lose yourself”- Jussie Smollet.